#8.Divine

My currently favorite shoes. I love it. It is so comfy that makes me feel like i am Barefoot. This shoes reminds me with the Tunisia shoes. Typically same cotton with similar stripes. It was 10 dinar and one day before i left it became 11 dinar. Haha Well, few minutes before i decided to buy new shoes, i got an email from my flatmate. Daniel, after long time no hear from you too-clean guy. I miss him. I miss Connie and Liina as well. I miss Tunisia, a lot. It was the unforgettable moment in my entire life.

Anyway, today i had cocktail as the evening break. Noo, i just want it actually. Today is the last day for the cocktail shop in my dormitory. It won't be here anymore. The contract has finished and there won't be any Cocktail in the university. Since it is the one and only shop. So, let's enjoy the sweet-delicious picture. It was DIVINE! After a long tired packing day. x) good night, sleep tight...




Don't let the bad bugs bite ;-)
Chandini

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#7. I'm back! x)

I write this post on my cute-tiny mobile phone in cafetaria mall. The laptop was (again) hang last night. This is the fourth time for my new laptop get error and sick. I don't know what is the real problem. I give up to get mad and upset. It will be dropped to the service center soon in KL. Yes, a reason for me to escape from the quiet jungle xD~

Anyway, how are you doing guys? I am fine. Well, not really. After finally i realize that there is time for everything. I have told you before that i am currently doing a project. I had tried my best to finish it but maybe not now, not this time. Later, soon, there is no effort in vain. Alloh has better plan for us. I believe all our efforts will bear a sweet fruit. If not today, maybe tomorrow. Don't worry and don't be sad. The right time will come. x)

I bought a new shoes yesterday. I was running to post office then suddenly the bottom part of shoes is "opened". It needs something to eat. Haha You got what i mean, right? It is broken, i need to buy a new one. So i decided to buy a shoes, flat one, horizontal stripes with various colors and black as the background. I love this shoes. It is so comfortable. I was confuse to choose between this stripes and pink polkadot one. Both of them are cute but i can't take them all. So i choose this shoes which reminds me with the ones in Tunisia. Yes, the pattern of shoes is same, totally. I almost bought the shoes before i left Tunis but for some reason i didn't buy it. The new shoes costs me 15 ringgit, by the way. After a bargain from 18ringgit, i am such a bad bargainer. xp

I would like to upload the picture of new shoes but i don't know how to upload picture from this application named Blogdroid. After this i am gonna figure it out and show to you my currently favorite shoes. Oh ya, blogging is very recommended while you are waiting for a slow-turtle bus. Killing your boring time, indeed. See you! Thanks for reading x)

PS: Welcome back to #30HariMenulis xD~


Hugs and kisses,
Chandini

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#6. The Darkest Hour Is Bright, Actually

#30HariMenulis has trained me to keep writing. About anything. Definitely a good progress, for me who usually will go meet the bed after a long tired day. Let the mind talks inside the dream and has been forgotten in the next morning.

Well, i write based on mood. I will write about happiness when i get the big and lovable ice cream. If i write about losing someone, means i am sad. And now, to be honest, i don't know what to write. The day went as usual..uhm..no, it is better at least. Cuz finally i reach the final stage yes, after long process and many challenges, i can finish the project. Insha Allah. x)

By the way, have you heard about the "Darkest Hour?" It is a movie in 2011. According to IMDB, it is about five young people lead the charge against an alien race who have attacked Earth via our supply. No, not this one. It is not about the movie that i want to talk here. It is about the dark hours you have been through that finally help you to see the light. Wow, what a line! Yeah, those black and scary tunnels trap you. They won't let you go until you break the wall.

Have you had insomnia? Or maybe you are a bat person? Typical people who sleep after the sun shines brightly in the eastern horizon, exactly like a bat. You should see this process, friend. The time when the dark sky slowly changed by the bright and sparkling sun. Yes, when the sun rises. The moment when the earth is covered by cold and black night is what i meant by the "Darkest Hour". So if you currently facing a big and hard problem, you should be glad. Cuz you will be success soon! Your dark hours will be ended and you will be able to see the bright sun. You will be happy and proud of yourself cuz you can make it through. 

It is called the dawn. When the sun just wake up and says  hi to the earth. The stars and the moon can sleep for a while when the sun replaces their position. There is always "darkest hour" for every success times. The Winner, a predicate for those who win the war between the dark hours. Don't worry, the dark hours won't be too long if you keep finding a way to turn the lights on. Later, you don't need to do it by yourself cuz the sun will always be there. It will shine and warm you with its brightest light. *)

PS: For you who are in hard time right now, Congrats! You will be success soon! x)

Bear Hugs,

Chandini

#5. Tentang Hari Ini...

Tidak ada yang spesial hari ini. Selain aku yang rindu menulis dalam bahasa Indonesia, hari ini biasa saja. Daun-daun tetap berserakan di sela-sela trotoar, menunggu angin untuk menyapunya. Matahari bersinar terang, pertanda sang hujan belum saatnya turun. Aku menghabiskan hari ini dengan duduk di depan komputer. Ya, aku menyunting gambar untuk film yang akan tayang sesaat lagi. Serasa membuat film bioskop, memang kalau dilihat dari durasi waktunya cukup panjang untuk disebut film pendek. Waktu begitu cepat berlalu, tidak terasa malam sudah menyapa dan perutku mulai mengaduh. Baru ingat, aku belum makan sejak pagi tadi. Bukannya tidak ingin, aku begitu sayang dengan adegan-adegan yang belum kusunting. Mereka terlalu indah untuk ditinggalkan dan aku tahu kalau perut ini masih bisa menunggu. Lagipula masih banyak cadangan lemak di dalam tubuh yang sewaktu-waktu bisa menjadi pengganti asupan makanan, iya kan perut? *)

Sabar. Hari ini aku belajar mengenai kata itu. Bahwa tidak semua berjalan sesuai dengan apa yang kita kehendaki. Bahwa kita harus menghargai waktu yang kita punya daripada merutuki apa yang sudah terjadi. Bahwa kita tidak sendirian, Alloh menemani kita. Dan betapapun kita merasa beban ini sangat berat, Ia tahu kalau kita pasti bisa melewatinya. Sepertinya aku mulai melantur. Atau mungkin karena sudah sangat letih. Jari ini terlalu lelah untuk menekan tuts tuts huruf di hadapan. Mata sudah sayup-sayup melirik bantal yang biasanya kucium kurang dari enam jam. 

Oh ya hari ini ada satu hal istimewa, aku makan es krim! Mungkin seminggu..atau dua minggu..lupa tepatnya kapan terakhir kali menelan si krim magis itu. Iya, daya magisnya bisa membuatku lupa akan segala resah dan gelisah. Semuanya hilang, berganti warna-warni pelangi yang ceria. Es krim coklat mix strawberry, favoritku, setelah melewati hari yang panjang. Hadiah setelah bekerja keras dengan harapan yang kembali muncul ke permukaan. Terimakasih kepada Kakak baik hati yang telah menjual es krim besar dan lezat. Anda telah menghadirkan es krim ke dalam mulutku yang sampai detik ini masih terasa manisnya. Dan juga mengantarkan aku ke dalam mimpi yang indah. Selamat malam. Semoga mimpi es krim yang lebih besar dan lebih lezat. x)

Picture taken by Me

Salam sayang selalu,

Chandini

#4. Just Keep Going

Sorry. This word will appear many times in this post. Sorry for the lazy me to write though i am in the training called #30HariMenulis. Sorry for the big-sleepy-head of me to choose sleeping than revising the script that will be submitted tomorrow. Sorry for the devil that works more than the angel inside of me. If there is a word describes apologize better than Sorry, i would say it. Unfortunately, i just know this one and only, five alphabets, s-o-r-r-y. I am so sorry.

Sometimes life can be so difficult. Tough. You don't know what you should do. You need someone to accompany you. But you have to accept the reality, about no one there to help you. No, actually there are two persons who have helped you. Can you just don't ask for more? They have helped you and you need to say thank you. However, maybe their help is not what you expect. Whatever, you can't rely on someone else, you are the one who make your own reality. Right?

I was there sitting and waiting for the bus. Across, two ladies were chit-chatting about something. Since this is a conversation between Indonesian and Malaysian so i will just name them I and M. They just come back from library, anyway.

M: Oh, i am so tired. But i will study again later at home.
I: Yes, but you have to relax first. Take some rest before you continue to study.
M: Aha. You are right.
I: Actually the more important thing is the process. Not the result.
M: Really?
I: Yeah, people always ask, When will you defense the proposal?
M: Hemm..
I: They don't ask how is the process that finally you can defense the proposal?
M: Yeah..
I: People just know the result that Mr. A is officially a Doctor now. Miss. B is is a successful entrepreneur. Mr. C is a good lecturer. They don't know the process that they have been through. They just know the end of the story.
M: Aha..
I: There is no one who can change the fate of someone except that person who change him or her self.
M: True..
I: It is the same with the cake. When you eat it, you know that the cake is delicious. You know that the sugar and salt are in good composition then you can't stop for eating. You eat the result but you don't know the process before. How the chef puts the ingredients and tries to make it as balance as possible. How she bakes it in the good temperature in oven so it won't be scorched. If she doesn't do all the process then you can't have the delicious cake in front of you right now. 
M: Yaaa..

I was overheard the conversation while working on the script. Those things said have hooked me. Totally, you just see the "sweet" from the result but you hardly find the "sweat" of it. The sweat means all the efforts, difficulties, obstacles, before someone finally reach the "sweet". You got what i mean, ya? x)

Currently, i am facing a big problem. I don't know what should i do. I am afraid i will disappoint my self. I am afraid i have spent too much time on this thing instead do something more useful (read: research proposal). I don't know whether the result gonna be good or not. I don't know know what they will say about this thing later. But, i don't expect to fulfill what they want, I just need to do the best that i can do. I was too afraid from failure. Again, what is failure if i can learn from this and reach success later on? Yes, i am not afraid anymore. Even with the limited time that i have. Even i have to do all, alone.

Sometimes, Allah SWT just wanna see how far you still can run in the middle of challenges around you. You just need to keep going. Don't quit. Never.

One more, self-forgiveness is the best medicine for all mistakes you have done. Get up! Get back to work! x)


Just keep going,
Chandini

#3. Tru(e) Calling, Not A Movie

I love film making. It is my passion to create a film that inspire people. At least when you step outside the cinema, you have a new vision. Something that inspire you with the actors, acting or the story itself. You don't curse the money that you spend for a such stupid film with silly actors. Otherwise, you have something on your mind accompany you on the way to home.

The first film that inspires me to create my own is "Janji Joni" (Joni's Promise) directed by Joko Anwar. I watched that film when i got chicken pox and had nothing to do than just sat in front of TV in new year's eve. It was miserable. But the film has made me feel better. I was inspired by such a unique and different story line presented through this film. The acting, the way they take the angle, script, soundtrack, all are perfect. Nicholas Saputra acts as Joni, the main actor.  I never doubt Nicholas acting.  He is a talented actor, indeed. The story is about Joni who works as film delivery man. His job is to drop the film from one cinema to other cinema. He is the one who decides whether the audience can watch the film or not since he has the film reels. If he can't drop it on time then so sorry you can't watch the film. One day, Joni meets Angelique (Mariana Renata) who watches film with his perfectionist boyfriend, Otto (Surya Saputra). Joni fall in love with this beautiful girl. But, Angelique will tell her real name only if Joni can drop the film reels for the film she is going to see. Joni thinks it would be easy. But that day, seems the world is against him. He faces many challenges from a homeless guy to the magician. Janji Joni was awarded as Best Movie in MTV Indonesia Movie awards, Best Director from Bali International Film Festival and many more. This is the proof that Joko Anwar is a good director as well as script writer.

 Janji Joni (2005)

In 2009, i created a Go Green Film and it was for competition. I wrote the script and asked for my friend help, Iia to find the actor and actress. It was fun during the shooting process. At the end, it went sucks cuz i don't how to edit the film so we gave it to someone else. He edited the film and i still remember he spelled my name wrongly as director at the beginning of credit. Until now, i don't have the copy of film. I have asked some friends but they don't have it as well. I love to see the film though it is below my expectation cuz i want to learn from it. Anyway, i enjoyed the film making process since then. x)

  The Crew of Go Green Film (2009)

The second film was for our Video and Digital Technology Final Assignment titled "The Sketch" in 2010. The genre was science fiction with many effects inside the film. The story is about a guy who has ability to predict the future through his sketch. I did enjoy the process as director and script writer. I satisfied with the story line and acting from the actor and actress. Since we have limited time and human resources to edit the film so it was ruined at the finishing touch. I was panic when two hours before the presentation suddenly the software was hang. Some part of the film were gone and i can't do anything. However, i love that film and i still keep all the scenes in my hard disk. Someday i would like to re-edit the film and make a new one.  

 Detty and Tyas, actress in "The Sketch" (2010)

Third film, is the one that i am currently doing. Since it has not been launched yet, i can't tell you the whole story. Before, i have many obstacles to conduct this film project. The time limit, the actor that suddenly can't join one day before shooting, equipments, location, limited crew, props used in film and right now, (again), the editing. Yes, i was hopeless to make this dream come true. But somehow Allah and universe help me, i have been met by people who come to support this film. From the cameraman, the urgent-substitute actor that becomes the main actor, the (non) accidental supporting actors, and many more. It was 19th of June and we have to submit the film in next two days. The person who supposed to edit the film was busy, a friend of mine. He said we don't have enough time to complete film within limited time. Then the answer from contact person of festival has made me happy and relieved. "You can submit it last on 28th," he said on the phone. I can not say a word than ''Alhamdulillah."  Allah has opened my way to finish this film. Now, even i have no one to help me for editing the film, i know i can do it. Other friends are busy and they can't help me with editing. I still have script to be revised and many tasks to do. But, i won't give up and i'm gonna make this film finished. Somehow i believe that Allah will help me in the process. I would like to be on stage and say thank you for all who supported this film later. And hopefully this film will inspire others who watch it. 

Anyway, before, i have denied this true calling of film making. It is my obsession to be a film director since long time ago. That is why i took Multimedia as major in university. Later i found out it is more  focus to 3D animation than film making so i have decided to forget about it. Moreover, i am currently a PhD student and i have never thought to create a film. But, i think your passion is too worth it to be "dumped". It will find the way and come back to you. Then you realize that you can't resist the true calling. A PhD and the film maker, why not? I need to balance my left and right brain, though. xD  How about you? Have you found your true calling? Hopefully you have. If you haven't, you still have a long way to go. Sure, you will find it, sooner or later. x)

Good night and sleep tight,

Chandini

#2. A Ship That Never Sinks

What do you think about the picture above? Two girls are gossiping something? xD~ Well, It could be. Or maybe they are talking about a hot guy sitting across them? This is more make sense. Haha xp

On the second day of #30HariMenulis, i want to talk about "Friendship". Yes, the common word exists around us. I bet you guys has at least, someone, called, f-r-i-e-n-d. Are you a geek or nerd that you don't have any friend? Sorry, but as social human being we need to actualize ourselves in the social life. It is human need as Abraham Maslow explained in hierarchy of needs. There are five needs: physiological, safety, love and belonging, esteem and self actualization. Friendship is included in the part of love and belonging.

I have many friends. According to Facebook, i have 1416 friends. Wow, i can make a big neighborhood with that number. Unfortunately, some of them are just Facebook Friends. We meet in cyber world and become friends there. Some are friends from primary school until the university. Nevertheless, Facebook doesn't have categorization of real friends. Yes, someone who will help to wipe tears when the jerk boyfriend dump you by cheating to someone else. A person who will lend you money in the middle of economic crisis as student.  "Friend in need is a friend indeed." I think that is the meaning of real friends. 

My good friend in primary school was Selly Danka. She was the one who usually called me in the middle of night, asked about homework. I went to her house, once, uhm no...twice. She cooked me instant noodle and we talked in the kitchen. Entering the junior high school, we enrolled to different school. But we found a way to keep communicate to each other, writing a letter. Yes, we like to send letters telling about our life. About school, the handsome first love, new friends and many more. I still remember one of her letters is colored in white with the Titanic stars on cover, Rose and Jack . In that letter she wrote that she was glad to have me as a best friend. She could share her stories, happiness and sadness. Another letter she wrote that she has many problems with the new boyfriend. I don't know how many letters she wrote to me. Someday, i realized the letter hasn't come anymore. She hasn't sent any letter, not even one. I asked my neighbor who usually drop the letter from Selly to me. Oh ya, the carrier of our letters is not a post man but my neighbor, Wennda. She goes to the same school with Selly. But she said, she doesn't know where she is. I haven't met Selly since then, not through her letter or face to face. She was disappeared without saying good bye. I always wonder where she is now.

Robintang and Ias Ariani were my best friends in junior high school. Though i met some more, Maria and other girls gank. Junior high school was one of the brightest moments in my life. Senior high school went so-so, ordinary life of high school. But yeah i had good and bad moments as well. I met a boy-best-friend also in the last year as high school student. In university i had good roommates, two from Malaysia and three from Indonesia. I also have other close friends, typical, girls gank, when i spent 4 months as student in Universitas Negeri Jakarta and including the girls gank in my university. However, life goes on and we can't always stay in the same place. Robintang moved to continue high school in Manado and I continued study to Malaysia. Some other friends stay in capital city, Jakarta. Moreover, i met good friends from different part of the world during my internship last year. Yet, we are separated to each other.

Although i study in Malaysia, i rarely go back to Indonesia. Once i went back home, i found many changes. In this context, i feel different with the behaviors of my good friends. A friend of mine, she is the one who usually listen to my stories. And, she is just different..she is not a person that i knew five years ago. I asked and reminded her with her good-listener-past behaviors. She admitted that she changed and though i wanted her like before, i couldn't. She has changed already. Currently, i have the same situation when (again) your good friend changes 180 degrees. If you know someone very well, you expect him or her to respond as you know them. Even, I can predict what she says when she find a shirt with her favorite color at the mall. That moment when she act differently, i realize she is not the same person anymore. Well, i can't blame someone to change their behaviors. It depends on them what they want to be and why they want to change. We do change as time flies. I do change as well since i live far away from home. "You are different," said one of my friend. Yes, we have to change to be a better person, right? 

Referring back to the picture above, i admit that we can't run away from separation. It is inevitable to get move on and find new life with new friends. No matter how far the distance is, we would still be friends. To be honest, i am sad to know the change of my friend after some time separated. Even though she changes, hope there is always one thing remain, our friendship. The people change but the friendship not. I accept her changes and try to understand the situation. I don't run away from her, i just stand still. I wait for the right time to help her. Cuz again, friendship is not about forcing someone to be what you want but to lend a hand together. This is my perception towards the words "nothing changes" written on the picture. Changes is the only constant in life. We can't deny and we have to adapt to it. Just maybe we need to consider and adjust certain things. So, if you have the same situation, when your friend changes and you feel weird about it, take your time. Firstly, you must be surprise but later you will realize the maturity process that your friend is facing right now.  Anyway, if you are able to answer the question below, you surely understand what this post is about:

"What kind of ship that never sink?"

PS:  This is not exam question, you can do open book or take it home xp 

Happy Friendship Day,

Chandini

#1. Aladin and Genie in the Bottle

Welcome to #30Harimenulis,

How are you doing guys? Hope everything is fine. I want to talk about the "Law Attraction" today. It's kind of interesting so let's go check this out! x)

According to Wikipedia, The Law Attraction is a belief or theory that "Like attracts Like" and that by focusing on positive or negative thoughts, one can bring positive or negative results. This happens to me and probably in your life as well. Thank you for "The Secret" book for introducing me with this theory. Once i read it, i become so optimistic that i can reach everything in life. Impossible is nothing. Totally it is. The universe hears our thoughts, hopes and feelings. The process is started from our brain, whatever we want or think, will go to the universe. Then voila! like a genie, universe will make it come true. That is why it is important to have  positive thinking habit cuz that definitely will come to you. 

Is it sounds like magic? yes, exactly. You can consider yourselves as Aladin who has a genie in bottle to fulfill your wishes. "Your wish is my command", said the genie. That also what universe says when we have something to be accomplished even for small little things. I have many examples for this "Aladin and Genie Story" based on the true story:

1. PhD (Doctor of Philosophy)

Honestly, i have never thought about this before. But i know nothing is accidentally, everything comes for a reason. In this case, a thing comes from your mind. Firstly, one day i was having lunch with my close friend, Daisy at Zubaidah cafetaria. As first year students, i don't know rules in detail about my campus. Daisy just talked about a guy across us who got jumped from Bachelor to PhD. "If you are first class student, you can go directly to PhD," she said. I just said "Wow" when i heard that. 

Secondly, I still remember when i visited Singapore in 2009. Our guide was Ruwadi, i found him from radio circle group. Though we haven't met before, he was patient enough to guide us around Singapore. At that time, we were standing on LRT to go to next destination. As i know he studied in France but later i found that he is a PhD student in NTU (Nanyang Technological University). He was sent to study about visual robotic in France. Anyway, he was 23 years old. "How can you be a PhD student in such young age?", i was curious. "I don't have Master degree," he explained. Oh i see, the same thing  in my university as i mentioned above. I was impressed by his intelligent and I want to be like him.

Thirdly, last year i attended ACIKITA International Seminar in Jakarta. I was host announcer from Radio PPI Dunia for broadcasting the seminar live. One of the speakers is Sherria Ayuandini, PhD Candidate from US. She talked about tips to get scholarship. She is smart and pretty as well. I like the way she talks and explain something. Well, again, i adore her and i wish i could be like her.

Fourthly, this is the time when universe fulfilled my wish. Hamdulillah i am officially PhD student now. Though i had wished about this but i never thought it would finally happened. Apparently, my Mom revealed her secrets. She said that she is always pray to Allah SWT that i can get scholarship for Master degree. While holding the PhD invitation letter from university, she smiled and said, "It means Allah SWT has fulfilled my wishes. You don't need to go for Master degree anymore. It is already included in scholarship." 

2. Tough Year, 2011

It was tough in 2011. Started in last semester of degree, i found life got busier and harder. I had 6 subjects and three jobs to be managed. For last semester students, 6 subjects were too many. But i had never regret to learn and get knowledge. The jobs are contributor for HAI-Online, crew of program in Radio PPI Dunia and as usual, lab assistant. The website contributor job is to update the website with any information related to music, film and stuff. Since campus life got more difficult, i stopped in September. For the radio job, i love radio so much and been a big fan of it since primary school. I don't mind to do it while my assignments are screamed to be done. xD anyway, i got a break when it was time for final exam. I had promised my self that i will get the best GPA for last semester. So i studied and studied, I set the target that i will get it within the range. Two weeks before my internship time, finally i got the confirmation letter from Tunisia company. I have almost given up to have internship abroad. But Allah led me and open the way, I just had in mind that i will have the internship. 

Tunisia taught me to be stronger and survive in difficult condition. You can never imagine to have a revolution in a country that you should be fun and enjoy your time there. I was totally freaked out when Tunisia was on status-quo. It was not a country, anymore. I can't continue my internship and i couldn't be graduated. It haunted my mind during two weeks. However, i bear in mind that this will be finished and i can continue my internship. Further, the company has forced to stop me from work and i was able to find another company in April 2011. I was worry that university would ask me to extend the time since i just completed 4 months from 6 months internship. But Hamdulillah, they understood my situation that this is happened out of my control. I have been told by supervisor to do the report just one and half month before the submission. It was late information but i finished all the projects and finally handed over the report three days before deadline. There were only two things in mind: i would have my graduation in 2011 and achieved my GPA target. Again, hamdulillah, Allah and universe helped me to make them come true.

3.  Istanbul, Turkey

I have landed my feet on Ataturk Airport, Istanbul, Turkey on 20th of Dec, 2011. I was amazed by its huge and modern style of airport. Moreover, i wished i could go out to enjoy the view than just sat waiting for transit time to Tunisia. I wasn't meant to be with Turkey that time.  The opportunity came when i was desperate by the jobless condition after Tunisia and Libya Revolution. After a month of jobless, there was an offer from Turkey company to hire me. I was interested but for some consideration i decided to stay in Tunisia. Deep down inside, I hope i can visit Turkey next time. I know i will go there, someday. It was around June, time for me to end the internship. Once i booked my flight ticket to Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia, i chose to fly with Turkish Airlines. The same airlines i took for flying to Tunisia. It means i will have transit in Istanbul, again. Since it is overnight flight so my transit was 21 hours. I slept at surau in airport and went sight seeing on the next day. Since i just had half day to go around, i chose to visit Sultanahmet area. Blue Mosque, Aya Sophia Hagia, Topkapi Palace, and others were very nice!  Istanbul is a colorful city with green, yellow and red buildings everywhere. I was so happy that finally i can enjoy the beautiful Turkey. I would love to go there next time! x)

 The Blue Mosque

4. Cultural Night in ITEX (International Invention, Innovation, Technology Exhibition)

I was  lucky when my lecturer, Dr. Sobihatun, asked me to join ITEX in KLCC May, 9th -11th ago. Even though i don't have any product to be presented, i was there to assist her and others  during this exhibition. ITEX is annual exhibition for international and local universities in Malaysia, UUM lecturers and students also joined this prestige exhibition. I found two booths from Indonesia, presented by UNJ (Universitas Negeri Jakarta) students. One of their innovative products were"Batik as new method to learn Mathematics". The result announced UUM for the winner of 4 golds, 5 silvers and 6 bronzes. So proud of my junior, Dendi, who won the gold medal of 3D Games Jojo Android! xD~

After the announcement, there would be celebration for Gold Medal award at 8PM that night. I was interested to join since this is gonna be a glorious moment for winners. Unfortunately, the ticket was only for gold medal winner and i couldn't join the event. I have asked to substitute the lecturer who would  not present at celebration but the ticket has given to someone else. It was a Friday night, i had no plan to do. I thought that i would be on the event. Since i got no plan, i asked the Indonesian students to go out together. They don't know KL very well and i would be their guide. It is better than spend time at home, alone. In the middle of hopeless and optimistic, i prayed to Allah SWT, that i could enter this event. I asked for Allah to help me coming to the event. I just believe that Allah will help me, somehow.

We were precisely at token machine to buy LRT ticket to Pasar Seni when my phone rang. It was from Dendi, he told me that Puan Aini couldn't come cuz she could barely walk. I was, speechless. I couldn't say anything. Allah and universe answered my wish. Finally, i came to that glorious celebration, we sat on 89 table. The celebration was huge and attended by noble people in innovation and invention area. I was sooo thankful that i could be there among the gold winners. I came to the stage and hold the gold medal of Encik Arifin since he wasn't there. That was like a dream, though i didn't get any medal but i took picture with it. Hopefully, i will get the gold medal, next year. x)

 ITEX Gold Medal

5. Paid a debt to a stranger after 2 years

Have you thought of someone then suddenly you met him? No, it is not coincidence. Cosmological coincidence is coincidence that has been set by universe. Universe has managed our rendezvous. Each of us has our life lines and somehow we will meet each other. I met this guy at Language Ethics Camp in Krabi, Thailand. He was with us, group of international students to teach Thailand students English. On the way to go back to UUM, i ran out of money. He lent me money to pay the taxi and since then we rarely met. Sorry for this small memory of brain, i forgot to pay him back. I was totally forgot, not supposedly. It was two years ago and suddenly two weeks ago, i thought about him. I remembered that i haven't paid back his money. I felt guilty but i don't know how to contact him. I don't have his number even i forgot his name. I don't know if he's still at UUM or not since it was long time ago. 

I was waiting for the bus to Changlun at the Mall while working on my script. Out of the blue, a guy came passed me. It was him! Thank God, i remembered his face though he quiet changed. I was running after him but he kept walking. I touched his shoulder to make him knows i was there, he was surprised. I explained that i am the one who has a debt after Krabi. He recognized me and i directly handed him the money. Totally, you can get anything that you think you can. Universe helped me to find and pay back the money. 

So, have you trusted all the magics? You should. If you haven't, let's start for yourselves tomorrow. Think about something and believe that you will get it. These are three keys to make them come true:

                                                1. Ask : Ask to the universe what you want
                                                2. Believe : Believe you will get it

                                                3. Receive : Feel that you have received it

You can start by praying to Allah SWT after shalat. While you are praying, feel that you receive and achieve your wishes. Later you will see it work, you don't need to think how or why. It just happened as what you wished.  Good luck!

Happy birthday Jakarta and happy writing for #30HariMenulis!

Everything is possible,

Chandini

Listen to This...

Untuk adik-adikku yang sedang kesal dengan rasa malas yang melambankan kehidupannya, dengarlah ini …

Mengapakah kesibukan hidupmu hanya bertarung dengan rasa malas, saat semua orang sedang mengambil keuntungan dari kerja keras?

Hidup ini tidak mudah.

Tidak ada orang yang hidupnya mudah. Yang ada adalah orang yang memampukan dirinya lebih kuat daripada kesulitan hidup.

Jika mereka mampu, mengapakah engkau tidak?

Jika mereka bisa merajinkan diri, mengapakah engkau tetap memelihara rasa malasmu?

Ini hidupmu.

Jika bukan engkau yang menjadikannya baik, siapa lagi?

Come now, get up!

This is your life. Make it great!


Mario Teguh - Loving you all as always

Get UP People,

Chandini

Qatar Airways Contest

Sahara Desert is Amazing!

Please vote my entry in Qatar Airways Contest:

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You can share my photo to Facebook, Twitter or Google Plus. And, join the contest as well x)

Your vote is much appreciated! Thanks a lot Guys *)

Thank you for voting, 

Chandini

Lately

Director wanna be x)

 Starring: Rahim a.k.a Hafizie

Camera Guy:  Ayien

Cameraman, indeed xD 

Director a.k.a Makcik 

Absolutely!

Rahim is having lunch 

Starring: Raja 

Starring: Razi a.k.a Malleq

GO GREEN FILM

C O M I N G  S O O N!

Wish US luck,

Chandini

Twice Upon A Time in Computer Lab...

The second person whom i wanna thank for enriching my lovely everlasting job as computer lab assistant...

Me: Wow, you finished already?
Him: Yeah, a week ago was my VIVA.
Me: Congrats! How was it?
Him: Yeah. it was okay.
Me: I'm PhD as well, just started. How long is your PhD? Are you in IT?
Him: Okay, i submitted my thesis just before 4 semesters. Almost, in November 2011. Yes, IT.
Me: (silence for a while)  WOW! You're amazing! How can you do that?
Him: Ahaa.. (smile) Everyday in library from 9 AM to 9 PM, until it is closed. 16 hours study per day.
Me: Woowww.. (still impressed) How's your social life and family?
Him: No social life. I marry my books. If you see i'm free, i'm thinking. Think how's the theory, the thesis.
Me: (nodding) You are incredible...
Him: Thanks (chuckling)
Me: So, what's your plan now? You finished already.
Him: Don't know. (flat face)
Me: You should go travelling. Many interesting places.
Him: Yeah, i know nothing about Malaysia.
Me: You should. Langkawi, Penang, Melaka. Oh ya, i have movie, Adventures of Tintin. You know that?
Him: Oh really? Alright. Tintin? What's that?
Me: No way. It's the famous one. It's my favorite cartoon when i was kid. Detective story.
Him: Okay, just save it in my hard disk.
Me: Watch it and you will enjoy, laugh. The story is entertaining.
....... The conversation continues........

A tips for finishing PhD within 1 year and 11 months. Wondering if can do the same thing. :| 


Anyway, thank you Friend,
Chandini

Once Upon A Time in Computer Lab...

I have a friend. I don't know his name. We usually meet in computer lab where i work every Saturday.  

These are the things he usually say to me...

"Do you enjoy? I see you enjoy your life. You take lunch, you go to supermarket, your Mom and Dad call you, you ask them money."

"Oow, it's 6 Ringgit. it's for my lunch."

"When will you defense your proposal?"

Sometimes i wonder why he say those things. Two weeks ago i found the answer...

"I have a wife, she's also student and four children. I'm a student as well, i have to pay for all of them. Nobody pay for me, i'm not in scholarship."

"They won't kill you. They also human being. They don't know everything. They just get advantage as your lecturer. That doesn't mean they are better than you. We don't read everything, what you read, maybe i don't read it.We are afraid of the examiners. Hey, it's normal when they ask questions. But you don't need to expect what the questions. You don't expect to answer all. Like in exams, they write, "ATTEMPT to answer these following questions." Do you know the meaning of ATTEMPT? TRY. You just need to try to answer as best as you can. To give your best answer. If you are afraid this semester, next semester, then when you will present?"

"I have to sweat now cuz i wanna feel sweet in my mouth later."

"You just need to go there and tell them what you do. Be brave!"

 There is nothing to be afraid of PhD Proposal Defense. And, Hamdulillah, i have the best parents in the world. Hamdulillah. x) 

Thank you, Friend *)

Chandini

Self-Forgiveness

I don’t know what to write here. I just think I need to write. Something. To let the mind talks and the heart listened.

As you know, I’m still in the feel of lost. I lost one of important persons in life. The worst, I’m the one who ask him to be lost, to go away. I was tired with our flat relationship. Boring. Maybe that’s the appropriate word. I have demanded to him for many things. I would like him to be like this, to be like that, and many more. I’m usually sad he’s not like the person I want to. But I know he won’t change so I have given up asking for that. He wants me to be more patient and other things. We are demanded to each other and ended up by no one can fulfill each other. When I take a look to our situation now, I think it’s better for us to be separated. It’s time for us to have self-reflection, what have been done, what have been wrong.  Although it’s hard to live without him, I always try to convince myself that this is the best for now. Wow, it sounds too much the word “hard to live”. I’ve lived 17 years before knowing him so it should be okay. Yeah, I have to admit that the four years relationship is not a short-easy to forget-relationship. We used to do things together and he knows me very well. He’s my best friend, apart his duty as boyfriend. Oops, it’s EX-boyfriend, already. :P

At the beginning, It’s just…so hard. You know, the feeling of happy when you have someone to talk to tonight. When your mind is usually filled in with one name there, as a boyfriend. A person you care and love about. Those have been programmed in your brain, in four years and two months. Suddenly, you need to delete all the programs. All the memories.  I wish I could be attacked by amnesia. But, again..I convinced myself many times that this is the best for us. Lately, I find it is interesting and calming, to love someone just because you want to. Apart from the distance that separates us, the flat relationship and others, I love him as the way he is. Even though it’s late already since he doesn’t love me anymore. It’s okay, I accept it as a process. A process for me to look deeper and to realize that we can’t always get what we want.

All these reflections bring me to one big thing, self-forgiveness. I haven’t forgiven myself since that bad broke up. I don’t know how to forgive myself. The worst, when you think this is the right decision but turned out the other way. Finally you realize it doesn’t work that you have made a big mistake. Yeah, in the age of twenties, I should be able to make decisions, good ones, but I couldn't. Along these past weeks, I have denied myself. I try to be fine and hide under my self-defense mechanism. For your information, to forgive ourselves is more difficult compare to forgive others. One of the factors is because human has self-defense mechanism. In psychology, self-defense mechanism is an unconscious strategy to protect ourselves from anxiety and tension.  It happens when we did mistake and try to find the  right justification for it. This happened to me as i think that i am not the only one who is wrong. “Noo, it’s his fault. He doesn’t..bla bla. I’m right, I have done my best. Bla-bla-bla.” We always do it, human. We don't accept that we’re the one who made it. We are shy to ourselves that we are wrong. I was in that phase and now, the wall of self-defense mechanism has been fallen down. Self-forgiveness, it was the one who broke my self-defense mechanism. I have forgiven myself that I was wrong. I forgive myself though I’m sucks and washed up.

What do you get from self-forgiveness? A new spirit. Yes, you become enthusiast to start a better life. You learn from your mistakes. You want to be a better person after the storm in the past. You want to achieve those you haven’t got before. You start to know new people, new friend. You are smiling in the middle of broken hearted pieces to be mended. You are calmer than ever before. That’s what I felt and went through. I find that I’m in the process to be a better person. So for you guys, who are in the same situation, or maybe you had been dumped, got into a relation-shit (not relationship), and even an unrequited love. You just need to forgive yourself. Admit that you have done a mistake, accept that. By forgiving yourself, you tell your self that you are strong with all things happened. Then you can start new chapter of life, a better one. 

Anyway, for those who just broke up, enjoy the lost, grief, despair and disappoint. Cry as loud as you can. Take out all your emotions. But don’t be too long cuz you still have a path to be finished. Get up, your life is there, wait for you to continue the journey. In case this post doesn't help you, you keep asking and wondering, maybe you should listen to this lyrics:

“And when the broken hearted people, living in the world agree, there will be an answer, let it be.” – The Beatles “Let It Be”

Let's forgive ourselves,

Chandini

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Everything is not lost, don't worry x)

HUGS,

Chandini

YOU

It’s been three weeks. I haven’t got over you. I have tried to smile, to be happy. I suppose to get through all of this, since I’m the one who wanted.  But, I don't know why. I clearly remember every little thing about us, especially, my complaints about you. Yes, you. You are the one who is a boring person, too kind, too perfect. We don’t have any common in music, film, travelling and stuff. You are the one who always ask the same thing in our messenger conversation. You, who is seldom texting or calling me, with this Long Distance Desperate Relationship. You, with all your patient and kindness, become too good to be a true man in this pathetic world. Yes, you…

I forget how I really want you to go, how I really want to be alone. When the distance seems so far away with only forty five minutes flight. I don’t know where the feelings go, maybe they hide somewhere, around the corner or in the middle of trees. But I couldn’t find them, it’s hard, actually. So I decided to ask and as usual, you said no. The same answer you gave to me since a year ago. I don’t know why you said no. You said you love me, but I just can’t understand how a person can love the other person so much. Even that person hurts you, a lot.

I know you want this relationship like a normal one. Like when we were young, happy and naïve. Four years ago when we just separated by ten minutes walk and sit in the same class together. But things changed, and the past can’t turn back in. So we need to change something. I want you to be here, but you can’t. You want me to be patient and wait. Wait until you can be beside me again, like before. I wait and wait…. For your information, I’m not a patient person. Especially with things related to feelings and heart. I can simply cry and sad. I’m weak, you know. But I’m tired to tell you that I miss you. I’m sick of missing you. Yes, missing someone makes you sick, don’t you agree?

I love you. I don’t want to hurt you anymore. So I decided to make it through, though I’m sick and tired. I pretend that I’m okay. We are okay. Those entire one message within three days and chatting with same conversation to be talked to, are okay. Even though, I need more than this. I know you just want me to be always beside you. You don’t need to know what I feel and what I think. You just want me, that’s all. Until one day, I realize that I rarely say good night to you. I have changed, you said. At the moment, I know that I have to tell you, the real thing. It went smooth, you didn’t say anything. You just said, you can’t force me anymore. I can do whatever I want. It was happened without arguing, “Sorry” and “thank you”. It was ended just like that.

The day passed by without any message in inbox . It is just empty. I tried to realize that this is all I wanted. I must accept that I’m alone now. I can do anything besides thinking how to save money for calling you later. How to make this long relationship lasted, like I always thought before. But I found it is hard, it is just difficult. I don’t know where all the complaints gone. It’s all, inside, just regrets. I’m full of regrets. I’ve should accepted you, I’ve should known better. Once, I thought that I’m okay just to be with you without your presence here. I’m okay with our different world, to be inferior beside a too perfect guy. There is always be a Beast for Beauty right? I would like to be your Beast. But, it’s late already. You’ve gone. I don’t know where to find you. Or maybe I shouldn’t, cuz if you read this now, you will laugh. You will laugh at my stupidity, arrogance and pretentiousness.

Yes, maybe I’m stupid. I finally realize that I’ve lost you. I miss you and I can’t get you back, again. It’s okay. I forgive myself that I made one of the big mistakes in life. You are too precious to be lost, you are half of myself. So now I should get up and look for another part of me. I will wander around, start from zero, a new adventure. I’m sure everything is not lost. Your footprints are here, inside me. They left lessons from you that will guide me in future. Thanks for all. I won’t forget all the memories. All the happy, sadness, hope, disappointment, love.  You’re the best I’ve ever had. Thank you.

PS: As time goes by, I know i will let you go x)

I  am okay,
Chandini

Quote of The Day

We don’t need to rush things. If something’s meant to be, it will happen. In the right time , with the right person and for the best reason. 
x')

Hey June! x)

Bonsoir! x)

It's June already! I'm begging you to be good to me, June. Yeah, many things to do this month! The important ones which decide my life in the future, at least for the next few months. *sigh* Let's check this out!

1. Proposal Defense 

Whatever the excuse is, whatever will happen, i'm gonna get the proposal done this month. So July it's time to defense the proposal. This is the most important thing cuz by defensing the proposal, insha Allah the way to get scholarship will open widely. Once i get scholarship i will have my own money. Yeah, i'm so desperate to ask  parents for money which i usually had it on my fingertips. Tunisia, i miss Tunisia life! i can buy anything with my salary including travelling in every single weekend! xD  Not only the scholarship thing, but also i can be research assistant and continue my research in a happier way. To be honest, life before proposal defense for PhD students is like a hellll x( You just keep reading, searching, worry, doubt on your self  "Is this the right topic? Should i looking for another one?"  It's a hell also after proposal defense but i think it's better cuz you know already what you wanna do. x)

2. Go Green Film Competition

One of dreams to make it come true! Yes, my dream is to be the director, script writer and director in my own film. I had created two movies before but both of them were sucks. At least the second one is better but since we just had limited time to edit the film so the finishing touch was terrible. Even i was so sad to be reminded by the good script, acting, everything looks good but at the end it is just nothing. Huff. Okay, so this the student competition film organized by Malaysian Company and we are interested in the prizes. Haha The prizes are the capital to start a multimedia company, I-Mac, Panasonic HD Video Camera, Final Cut Pro and Adobe Premier Software. We had formed the group so let's get the film done! I'm gonna create the script and the story is gonna be a comedy genre. Wish us luck!!

3. Writing Competition

I won't stop writing and join competition is one of motivation to improve the quality of writing. This is the competition made by PPI Yaman and it's open for Indonesian all over the world. The prizes also will make you interest to join the competition, for the best 100 writers will get into the compilation book, for the winners of course, the money. It's not so much but i think the more important thing is to try and see how much you have been improved as a writer, right? x)

4. Summer School

This is a random plan. Yeah, i have looking for summer school scholarship lately and just found this one in Bucharest, Romania. But they don't pay for your transportation so i'm not sure whether i'll join or not but i'll send the application. If i have money then i will fly, why not?  I'm in the need for travelling and experience. Moreover, the topic of summer school is related with my study so i don't have any excuse for not submitting the application. xD

5. ACI Detik.com

Oh my, i have been waiting for the news of registration for this event. But, there's no news until now. I'm afraid they won't open for the this year. NOO! I'm one of the hidden adventurers you haven't found Detik.com *)) hehehe If they fix for closing the event so i have to make another plan. Travelling to Indonesia is always haunt my mind. I've travelled to Africa but i'm blind of Java island hahaha xD~

6. Tunisia Diary

There will be a diary launched soon! This is about my crazy-amazing-unforgettable experiences in Tunisia. This is gonna be my first "child". Okay, i have to maintain my mood to write x) I'll finish it soonnn! x)

7. Doodles

I have started drawing lately and i think i'm talented on it. hehe  So i'm gonna polish it digitally x) I just wanna be an artist, since a long time. My hidden desire, seems it is xD

Source: Make it come true!

                                           "I Will Do The Best and God Will Do The Rest"         

PS: Currently doing the research proposal for Research methodology, no sleep :|

Go get YOUR dream,

Chandini